My performance since entering tertiary education certainly did not live up to my own expectations in my first semester and I guess my "academic confidence" took a dip since then and ma had doubts on my pursuing a degree in economics. See, it wasn't like I've always wanted to do econs, it only came about my last year of high school. Before that I wanted to write about sports. Mmhmm, I guess I only wanted to that to ceaselessly ramble about my favorite club with a cause. At a certain I point there, I didn't know what I wanted. And that's scary.
The most basic thing in econs is perhaps to concept of scarcity and how we're pressured to make decisions out of it. And with time running out in terms of applying for unis back then, I made my decision, economics it is.
In many ways,I wish I was more like the economy. I.e when the economy's in its depressed state. It's ability to cure itself, how it needs intervention at necessary times to bounce back again. It's not needy yet when it becomes overly reliant on its own, help comes in at the right time (and that help ain't being to pushy either).
It's unpredictable yet somewhat uniform. More importantly for me personally, it's the only thing that makes rational sense.
It balances making decisions "using the heart and the head" almost flawlessly, something that I don't think I would be able to accomplish.
I would consider myself kinda indecisive (okay maybe very indecisive). With university applications around the corner i'm having trouble deciding whether I should do a bachelor of science in econs or a bachelor of arts in econs. I've narrowed down uni choices just for the sake of having something on the list. I don't even know whether I wanna fricken fly or not. At this point, I realize I still don't know what I want. And it's scary.
